Father's day

VEDHEAD27VEDHEAD27 Posts: 3,091
Father's day
was everyday
with you
today is like everyday
without you
empty,hollow,sad

today fills me
with jealously
and a conflict of emotions
drowning in the sorrow of all that I no longer have
but reminded of how grateful I am
for all that I did

it won't ever stop hurting
it won't ever be ok
but still I must live each and everyday
without your voice
your smile
your shining life
now I live with your memories
you still shine but in a different way
and I know that won't ever fade

Come back
the words I repeat all the time
Dreamfully hoping the more I think them the more likely the chances
Don't wake me
this is the only way
Come back
over and over
Come back
I can't believe PEARL JAM wrote this song!!!!!
I cried so much when I first heard it I could hardly breathe
I cried so much
I still do
I always do
For you
I swear they reached directly into my soul that lives just for you
and gathered these words, these thoughts, this pain
and transformed it all into a song
Your song
Come back
I hear it all the time
I wish it all the time
I won't ever stop

I can't believe you came to me in my dream last night
always the same reccuring one
that you finally....came back
I woke up this morning missing you so much
conflict of emotions
complete in a way that I haven't felt in so long
but feeling as though I had just lost you
I had you but just lost you
I realiZed a few hours ago what today was
Father's day
I couldn't help but smile amongst the pain
Thank you for coming back

Father's day
will always be
everyday
with you

(((((*RIP*Love& miss you so much...always))))
¤º°`°º¤ø,¸¸,ø¤º°`°º¤ø,¸¸,ø¤

"Lo√e, you know the word
...YOU invented it!" ~ E√

¤º°`°º¤ø,¸¸,ø¤º°`°º¤ø,¸¸,ø¤
...::STONE--YOU--OWN!::...
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  • reachdown12reachdown12 Posts: 693
    (((((((((((Lyd)))))))))))

    That was such a touching poem my dear. I can't imagine that loss..best to remember all the good rather than to dwell in the shadows..but you truly exuberate beauty in such a way here as tragic as it is. I'm sorry for the loss, but i'm sure he is smiling upon you hun. :)
    "Everyone wants to be the sun that lights up your life, but I'd rather be your moon so I can shine on you during your darkest hour when your sun's not around."
  • VEDHEAD27VEDHEAD27 Posts: 3,091
    *crying*

    Thank you so much Jenn! *HUGS* That means so much. I just really had to get this out. :( I miss him horribly...it makes me feel physically SICK!!!!! Sometimes it hits harder than others. Having that dream and then realizing what today was? Wow. I had to let it out somewhere. This is really just rambling sadness...but it helps. Thanks again girl..especially the last thing you said...it made me sad/happy and means a lot. :)

    Every and anything good about me I have that man to thank. He was the best in every possible way. :( Always will be.
    ¤º°`°º¤ø,¸¸,ø¤º°`°º¤ø,¸¸,ø¤

    "Lo√e, you know the word
    ...YOU invented it!" ~ E√

    ¤º°`°º¤ø,¸¸,ø¤º°`°º¤ø,¸¸,ø¤
    ...::STONE--YOU--OWN!::...
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  • thanks for sharing your words vedhead. i just went through my first mother's day without my mom, and days like these come up and you're reminded how much you miss someone and how much they influenced your life. it's a tough thing. getting the words and thoughts out helps a lot.

    i'm sorry you're having a tough day. rambling sadness, words...whatever helps you get through...that and good memories is all i find i need to get through. i'm sure your dad is somewhere special, knowing and feeling the special things you have to say about him.
  • PapPap Serres, GreecePosts: 19,908
    Happy Father's Day to the coolest dads on planet earth! :rock_on:
    Ooh, yeah! All right!
    Were [Pearl] jammin
    I wanna [Pearl] jam it wid you.
    Were [Pearl] jammin, [Pearl] jammin
    And I hope you like [Pearl] jammin too.


    Sep 30, 2006 - OAKA Sports Hall - Athens, Greece
    Jul 11, 2014 - Milton Keynes Bowl - Milton Keynes, UK
  • PapPap Serres, GreecePosts: 19,908

    Ooh, yeah! All right!
    Were [Pearl] jammin
    I wanna [Pearl] jam it wid you.
    Were [Pearl] jammin, [Pearl] jammin
    And I hope you like [Pearl] jammin too.


    Sep 30, 2006 - OAKA Sports Hall - Athens, Greece
    Jul 11, 2014 - Milton Keynes Bowl - Milton Keynes, UK
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