I've been knuckle deep into a slew of recti and I can say with experience that nobody is having any fun, but there's also a professional detachment that makes it bearable.
Thoughts Arrive, NOBODY here wants you to die. EVERYBODY here wants you to take control of your life and find happiness.
For those who are afraid of a digital prostate exam, I recommend you Google "rigid sigmoidoscope" and consider that this not so little device is more likely to be deployed if you skip your exams and colonoscopies.
Some do.
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Thoughts Arrive, NOBODY here wants you to die. EVERYBODY here wants you to take control of your life and find happiness.
For those who are afraid of a digital prostate exam, I recommend you Google "rigid sigmoidoscope" and consider that this not so little device is more likely to be deployed if you skip your exams and colonoscopies.
Some do.
Bullshit. These are good people 'round here. Maybe they don't tell you what you want to hear, but that doesn't mean they have ill will.
Some members I thought were nice turned out to be vicious bullies. Not going to name them here because I don't want to get banned for good. They know who they are. From criticising me at every turn to ignoring me on PM when I am being friendly.
Adelaide 17/11/2009, Melbourne 20/11/2009, Sydney 22/11/2009, Melbourne (Big Day Out Festival) 24/01/2014
That's not a vicious bullying bud, that's just people being honest. Vicious bullying is not something that happens around here. When you open yourself to criticism purposely, you need to be able to handle the truth.
How have I opened up myself up to criticism purposely?
You ask for people's opinions and then dismiss them when given.
asking for opinions shouldn't lead to being criticised and even mocked.
I agree, it shouldn't, but it inevitably will. This is the internet.
The relevant threads that I recall weren't so simple as that anyways. In those threads you were given an abundance of genuine, open, and honest responses that you promptly shot down in a serious effort to maintain a persecuted status. People lose patience with that sort of behavior and when people lose patience they don't show their best selves. Sure, there are people here who could be being better selves in their interactions with you, but couldn't you also be a better self in these interactions? Couldn't you take the given advice you've asked for under serious consideration and be thankful? We all have our lesser moments, but a little snarkiness on the internet does not equate to wishing people would die. If you seriously believe that, then your persecution complex is very severe.
FWIW, I think you seem like a good guy that just needs to get some mojo going and stop with the self-hate. Everybody has good that they can bring into this world.
How have I opened up myself up to criticism purposely?
You ask for people's opinions and then dismiss them when given.
asking for opinions shouldn't lead to being criticised and even mocked.
Try not to take things personal, especially websites like this. Do you have other things of great interest to you? If you do, try to find forums associated with other interest to balance things. I’m a member of a sports forums, it is free to join, very well moderated, the moderators of the other forums I go to tolerate no bs...
How have I opened up myself up to criticism purposely?
You ask for people's opinions and then dismiss them when given.
asking for opinions shouldn't lead to being criticised and even mocked.
I agree, it shouldn't, but it inevitably will. This is the internet.
The relevant threads that I recall weren't so simple as that anyways. In those threads you were given an abundance of genuine, open, and honest responses that you promptly shot down in a serious effort to maintain a persecuted status. People lose patience with that sort of behavior and when people lose patience they don't show their best selves. Sure, there are people here who could be being better selves in their interactions with you, but couldn't you also be a better self in these interactions? Couldn't you take the given advice you've asked for under serious consideration and be thankful? We all have our lesser moments, but a little snarkiness on the internet does not equate to wishing people would die. If you seriously believe that, then your persecution complex is very severe.
FWIW, I think you seem like a good guy that just needs to get some mojo going and stop with the self-hate. Everybody has good that they can bring into this world.
I wasn't deliberately shooting down people's responses. Most times I could not do what people suggested and they took it as me shooting them down. Okay, I exaggerated shit about people wishing me harm but it's clear I am hated.
Adelaide 17/11/2009, Melbourne 20/11/2009, Sydney 22/11/2009, Melbourne (Big Day Out Festival) 24/01/2014
How have I opened up myself up to criticism purposely?
You ask for people's opinions and then dismiss them when given.
asking for opinions shouldn't lead to being criticised and even mocked.
Try not to take things personal, especially websites like this. Do you have other things of great interest to you? If you do, try to find forums associated with other interest to balance things. I’m a member of a sports forums, it is free to join, very well moderated, the moderators of the other forums I go to tolerate no bs...
I am on another forum for artists.
Adelaide 17/11/2009, Melbourne 20/11/2009, Sydney 22/11/2009, Melbourne (Big Day Out Festival) 24/01/2014
Some members I thought were nice turned out to be vicious bullies. Not going to name them here because I don't want to get banned for good. They know who they are. From criticising me at every turn to ignoring me on PM when I am being friendly.
Even if that's true, I feel pretty confident saying that not a single
one of them want you to die, or anything close to it. Just because
people don't agree with you or don't get along with you or choose not to
engage with you, it doesn't mean they bear you any ill will whatsoever.
Like rgambs said, sometimes people get frustrated with your continual refusal to take advise that you initially seek out - you reject all help given but continue to ask for it, and then you adopt a victim's attitude after you are the one who lashes out. When you do that, just about everyone will reach a point when they start showing their annoyance or impatience with that behaviour. But anyway, at the end of the day, from what I've seen, everyone has done their best to help you, and continues to do so, and you reject those efforts 100% of the time and then act like we all hate you. I'm not too sure how you expect people to react to that, other than in the way they have. Again I agree with rgambs - you seem to have a pretty severe persecution complex. That's troubling... have you discussed this particular issue with your therapist?
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Some members I thought were nice turned out to be vicious bullies. Not going to name them here because I don't want to get banned for good. They know who they are. From criticising me at every turn to ignoring me on PM when I am being friendly.
Even if that's true, I feel pretty confident saying that not a single one of them want you to die, or anything close to it. Just because people don't agree with you or don't get along with you or choose not to engage with you, it doesn't mean they bear you any ill will whatsoever.
True. And an important lesson I've learned is that not everyone has to like you. It'd be strange if everyone did, no?
I mean, I can feel "meh" about someone without actually disliking them. And...there are some folks I actually DO dislike. I expect it to go both ways too. Such is life and human nature.
Anyway, I went and re-read the original post. Man, this thread has devolved!
I just had a prostate exam.
A MAN STUCK HIS FINGER IN MY BUTTHOLE AND TWIRLED IT AROUND
I found myself hoping he'd find something.
because either he'd save my life or I would die soon and not have this memory.
The doctor is already lost. He has done so many weird things, professionally or socially, he will soon forget about my butthole.
Now I walk around in shame wondering if everybody that sees me just knows I've had a butthole swirly.
How I wish for the days of the exactly 389 post club. I've lost my innocence.
I just had a prostate exam.
A MAN STUCK HIS FINGER IN MY BUTTHOLE AND TWIRLED IT AROUND
I found myself hoping he'd find something.
because either he'd save my life or I would die soon and not have this memory.
The doctor is already lost. He has done so many weird things, professionally or socially, he will soon forget about my butthole.
Now I walk around in shame wondering if everybody that sees me just knows I've had a butthole swirly.
How I wish for the days of the exactly 389 post club. I've lost my innocence.
At least it was a finger used. When I left my annual exam, it felt as if I was internally scrubbed with a scotch brite pad. Not pleasant.
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These are good people 'round here.
Maybe they don't tell you what you want to hear, but that doesn't mean they have ill will.
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Not going to name them here because I don't want to get banned for good.
They know who they are.
From criticising me at every turn to ignoring me on PM when I am being friendly.
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Vicious bullying is not something that happens around here.
When you open yourself to criticism purposely, you need to be able to handle the truth.
The relevant threads that I recall weren't so simple as that anyways. In those threads you were given an abundance of genuine, open, and honest responses that you promptly shot down in a serious effort to maintain a persecuted status.
People lose patience with that sort of behavior and when people lose patience they don't show their best selves. Sure, there are people here who could be being better selves in their interactions with you, but couldn't you also be a better self in these interactions? Couldn't you take the given advice you've asked for under serious consideration and be thankful?
We all have our lesser moments, but a little snarkiness on the internet does not equate to wishing people would die. If you seriously believe that, then your persecution complex is very severe.
FWIW, I think you seem like a good guy that just needs to get some mojo going and stop with the self-hate.
Everybody has good that they can bring into this world.
Like rgambs said, sometimes people get frustrated with your continual refusal to take advise that you initially seek out - you reject all help given but continue to ask for it, and then you adopt a victim's attitude after you are the one who lashes out. When you do that, just about everyone will reach a point when they start showing their annoyance or impatience with that behaviour. But anyway, at the end of the day, from what I've seen, everyone has done their best to help you, and continues to do so, and you reject those efforts 100% of the time and then act like we all hate you. I'm not too sure how you expect people to react to that, other than in the way they have.
I mean, I can feel "meh" about someone without actually disliking them. And...there are some folks I actually DO dislike. I expect it to go both ways too. Such is life and human nature.
Anyway, I went and re-read the original post. Man, this thread has devolved!
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Its changed direction for sure. Again no pun intended
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even if I look and act really crazy.
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