Whiskey bottles, and brand new cars
Oak tree you're in my way
There's too much coke and too much smoke
Look what's going on inside you
Ooooh that smell
Can't you smell that smell
Ooooh that smell
The smell of death surrounds you
Angel of darkness is upon you
Stuck a needle in your arm
So take another toke, have a blow for your nose
One more drink fool, will drown you
Ooooh that smell
Can't you smell that smell
Ooooh that smell
The smell of death surrounds you
Now they call you Prince Charming
Can't speak a word when you're full of 'ludes
Say you'll be all right come tomorrow
But tomorrow might not be here for you
Ooooh that smell
Can't you smell that smell
Ooooh that smell
The smell of death surrounds you
Hey, you're a fool you
Stick them needles in your arm
I know I been there before
One little problem that confronts you
Got a monkey on your back
Just one more fix, Lord might do the trick
One hell of a price for you to get your kicks
Ooooh that smell
Can't you smell that smell
Ooooh that smell
The smell of death surrounds you
Ooooh that smell
Can't you smell that smell
Ooooh that smell
The smell of death surrounds you
"This here's a REQUEST!"
EV intro to Chloe Dancer / Crown of Thorns
10/25/13 Hartford
Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
Keep up the good work :thumbup: . I worked with plenty of guys in the NYC fire dept who are in recovery. It's NEVER easy. Again, keep up the good, hard work staying sober :ugeek: .
See you in Chicago & thanks again for the ticket .
So, What you Giving ?........ (Thanks Speedy, Alesek, & Arq+friends)
What You Giving
I suggest you step out on your Porch.
Run away my son. See it all. Oh, See the World!
Keep up the good work :thumbup: . I worked with plenty of guys in the NYC fire dept who are in recovery. It's NEVER easy. Again, keep up the good, hard work staying sober :ugeek: .
See you in Chicago & thanks again for the ticket .
been around 3 years since i drank alcohol. alcoholism runs in my family. most everyone i ever ran with has either been a drunk or a drug addict or both. since i have been done with this scene i am the loniest i have ever been & that is ok. i am growing i guess & i am also angry & ecstactic. we have abandoned one another, at least that is my view of it all. i also don't make new friends very easily.
i really dislike this kind of overindulgence because it is so rotten, so thick, so high & so pathetically weak. weakness destroys
been around 3 years since i drank alcohol. alcoholism runs in my family. most everyone i ever ran with has either been a drunk or a drug addict or both. since i have been done with this scene i am the loniest i have ever been & that is ok. i am growing i guess & i am also angry & ecstactic. we have abandoned one another, at least that is my view of it all. i also don't make new friends very easily.
i really dislike this kind of overindulgence because it is so rotten, so thick, so high & so pathetically weak. weakness destroys
alcohol/alcoholism scares me to my core.
Good for you chadwick. Its tough. I used to drink because of feeling lonely.
You probably could tell a lot of that from my book (obviously), and a lot of that was ugly if not for the humor.
I've slowed my drinking considerably and I cant emphasize how much better I feel physically. Its truly a huge difference... if not for sanity, for your health, which is the most important thing these days.
been around 3 years since i drank alcohol. alcoholism runs in my family. most everyone i ever ran with has either been a drunk or a drug addict or both. since i have been done with this scene i am the loniest i have ever been & that is ok. i am growing i guess & i am also angry & ecstactic. we have abandoned one another, at least that is my view of it all. i also don't make new friends very easily.
i really dislike this kind of overindulgence because it is so rotten, so thick, so high & so pathetically weak. weakness destroys
alcohol/alcoholism scares me to my core.
Good for you chadwick. Its tough. I used to drink because of feeling lonely.
You probably could tell a lot of that from my book (obviously), and a lot of that was ugly if not for the humor.
I've slowed my drinking considerably and I cant emphasize how much better I feel physically. Its truly a huge difference... if not for sanity, for your health, which is the most important thing these days.
fantastic = feeling good. thank you for sharing a bit of yourself in your writing. you have talent.
i've only ever been hurt by (hard) drug use & alcoholism. and because i can't be around alcohol & the whole good times scene, i'm a prick. because i can't drink & refuse, my old pals believe im fucked & im outcasted. i guess it works out for everyone included
You're only as good as the company you keep.
And if that company want's to lead you astray,Fuck'em.
That say's a lot your character Chadwick. Stay Strong,
You know you're not alone. You have your Family here.
Some of us may be sicker than others, But we share the love.
You're only as good as the company you keep.
And if that company want's to lead you astray,Fuck'em.
That say's a lot your character Chadwick. Stay Strong,
You know you're not alone. You have your Family here.
Some of us may be sicker than others, But we share the love.
i'd like to add that being mental unusual, only contributes to abuse
i am sorry for every single thing where i hurt others
abuse
abuse
abuse
abuse
abuse
abuse
soon your skin aint correct
you are sick
starving every single cell
it aint right
just wake up
abuse
abuse
abuse
abuse
abuse
abuse
abuse
i hate myself
i hate myself
i hate myself
i hate mu
Chadwick,
In early sobriety I thought every day not drinking would feel like holding my breath or standing on one foot...
I can assure you that not drinking for 24 hours on a day after day basis TRANSFORMED me into a different (a more serene state.
It takes time but I went to lots of meetings.
TIME = Things I Must Earn
A life a drinking can't be turned around in one day.
It's like walking into the forest for 20 miles and expecting to walk out in one.
But it's not all sour faces and bad coffee.
At first meetings seemed boring and awkward but then they became a place of refuge for me.
Like being at the bar used to be...
In AA I FEEL ACCEPTED, SAFE, RELAXED
Look at how many people are smiling and laughing at AA meetings.
Ask yourself whether THEY would keep coming to meetings if something didnt click for them?
Answer: they wouldn't..
It works if you work it.
It did for me... And millions of others..
And I still rock, laugh, tailgate, love, lust and live life to its fullest.
Does MIKE MCRCREADY or Chris Cornell looked bored and irritable?
If you don't believe me, believe them..
"This here's a REQUEST!"
EV intro to Chloe Dancer / Crown of Thorns
10/25/13 Hartford
Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
Sweet. Today is actually my 3rd day of being sober and being in the program. I had a bit of a freak out today, haha, but I'm hoping everything will get better. Im ok now. I've been listening to a bunch of PJ and not just because the new album came out. Just seems appropriate for this time in my life I guess. Specifically I Got ID. Something about that song, man, haha.
Walking is still honest
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Sweet. Today is actually my 3rd day of being sober and being in the program. I had a bit of a freak out today, haha, but I'm hoping everything will get better. Im ok now. I've been listening to a bunch of PJ and not just because the new album came out. Just seems appropriate for this time in my life I guess. Specifically I Got ID. Something about that song, man, haha.
early on can be a bit rough. In part because we didnt get good restorative sleep all that much, diet shot to shit, and we go through the initial detox. On top of that we now have to cope with life without our "medicine" .
Get some #'s from people at the meetings. Switch up which ones you go to to see where you feel most comfortable. And we are here too. Feel free to PM if you want to.
Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
Comments
Oak tree you're in my way
There's too much coke and too much smoke
Look what's going on inside you
Ooooh that smell
Can't you smell that smell
Ooooh that smell
The smell of death surrounds you
Angel of darkness is upon you
Stuck a needle in your arm
So take another toke, have a blow for your nose
One more drink fool, will drown you
Ooooh that smell
Can't you smell that smell
Ooooh that smell
The smell of death surrounds you
Now they call you Prince Charming
Can't speak a word when you're full of 'ludes
Say you'll be all right come tomorrow
But tomorrow might not be here for you
Ooooh that smell
Can't you smell that smell
Ooooh that smell
The smell of death surrounds you
Hey, you're a fool you
Stick them needles in your arm
I know I been there before
One little problem that confronts you
Got a monkey on your back
Just one more fix, Lord might do the trick
One hell of a price for you to get your kicks
Ooooh that smell
Can't you smell that smell
Ooooh that smell
The smell of death surrounds you
Ooooh that smell
Can't you smell that smell
Ooooh that smell
The smell of death surrounds you
EV intro to Chloe Dancer / Crown of Thorns
10/25/13 Hartford
Keep it rolling!
EV intro to Chloe Dancer / Crown of Thorns
10/25/13 Hartford
Congrats
Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
thanks guys!
Keep up the good work :thumbup: . I worked with plenty of guys in the NYC fire dept who are in recovery. It's NEVER easy. Again, keep up the good, hard work staying sober :ugeek: .
See you in Chicago & thanks again for the ticket
What You Giving
I suggest you step out on your Porch.
Run away my son. See it all. Oh, See the World!
Congratulations. It is a good life. Time to dig deeper.
the whole world will be relieved
i really dislike this kind of overindulgence because it is so rotten, so thick, so high & so pathetically weak. weakness destroys
alcohol/alcoholism scares me to my core.
"Hear me, my chiefs!
I am tired; my heart is
sick and sad. From where
the sun stands I will fight
no more forever."
Chief Joseph - Nez Perce
This is a choice you just can't think about."You Do It!"
Good for you chadwick. Its tough. I used to drink because of feeling lonely.
You probably could tell a lot of that from my book (obviously), and a lot of that was ugly if not for the humor.
I've slowed my drinking considerably and I cant emphasize how much better I feel physically. Its truly a huge difference... if not for sanity, for your health, which is the most important thing these days.
fantastic = feeling good. thank you for sharing a bit of yourself in your writing. you have talent.
i've only ever been hurt by (hard) drug use & alcoholism. and because i can't be around alcohol & the whole good times scene, i'm a prick. because i can't drink & refuse, my old pals believe im fucked & im outcasted. i guess it works out for everyone included
"Hear me, my chiefs!
I am tired; my heart is
sick and sad. From where
the sun stands I will fight
no more forever."
Chief Joseph - Nez Perce
And if that company want's to lead you astray,Fuck'em.
That say's a lot your character Chadwick. Stay Strong,
You know you're not alone. You have your Family here.
Some of us may be sicker than others, But we share the love.
"Hear me, my chiefs!
I am tired; my heart is
sick and sad. From where
the sun stands I will fight
no more forever."
Chief Joseph - Nez Perce
i am sorry for every single thing where i hurt others
abuse
abuse
abuse
abuse
abuse
abuse
soon your skin aint correct
you are sick
starving every single cell
it aint right
just wake up
abuse
abuse
abuse
abuse
abuse
abuse
abuse
i hate myself
i hate myself
i hate myself
i hate mu
"Hear me, my chiefs!
I am tired; my heart is
sick and sad. From where
the sun stands I will fight
no more forever."
Chief Joseph - Nez Perce
In early sobriety I thought every day not drinking would feel like holding my breath or standing on one foot...
I can assure you that not drinking for 24 hours on a day after day basis TRANSFORMED me into a different (a more serene state.
It takes time but I went to lots of meetings.
TIME = Things I Must Earn
A life a drinking can't be turned around in one day.
It's like walking into the forest for 20 miles and expecting to walk out in one.
But it's not all sour faces and bad coffee.
At first meetings seemed boring and awkward but then they became a place of refuge for me.
Like being at the bar used to be...
In AA I FEEL ACCEPTED, SAFE, RELAXED
Look at how many people are smiling and laughing at AA meetings.
Ask yourself whether THEY would keep coming to meetings if something didnt click for them?
Answer: they wouldn't..
It works if you work it.
It did for me... And millions of others..
And I still rock, laugh, tailgate, love, lust and live life to its fullest.
Does MIKE MCRCREADY or Chris Cornell looked bored and irritable?
If you don't believe me, believe them..
EV intro to Chloe Dancer / Crown of Thorns
10/25/13 Hartford
i feel like on on the brink of no return. :(
Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
EV intro to Chloe Dancer / Crown of Thorns
10/25/13 Hartford
Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
:crazy:
It's my favorite flavor!
EV intro to Chloe Dancer / Crown of Thorns
10/25/13 Hartford
"Hear me, my chiefs!
I am tired; my heart is
sick and sad. From where
the sun stands I will fight
no more forever."
Chief Joseph - Nez Perce
"When you can't stop and you can't go on, you're in a hell of a place!"
Stevie Ray Vaughan
Last AA commitment
EV intro to Chloe Dancer / Crown of Thorns
10/25/13 Hartford
"Hear me, my chiefs!
I am tired; my heart is
sick and sad. From where
the sun stands I will fight
no more forever."
Chief Joseph - Nez Perce
Love yourself for having the courage to change.
http://abcnews.go.com/GMA/video/pearl-j ... s-20644090
Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
Get some #'s from people at the meetings. Switch up which ones you go to to see where you feel most comfortable. And we are here too. Feel free to PM if you want to.
WELCOME!!!!!
Not today Sir, Probably not tomorrow.............................................. bayfront arena st. pete '94
you're finally here and I'm a mess................................................... nationwide arena columbus '10
memories like fingerprints are slowly raising.................................... first niagara center buffalo '13
another man ..... moved by sleight of hand...................................... joe louis arena detroit '14
Being sober IS cool and doesn't stop the rockin one bit!
http://abcnews.go.com/GMA/video/pearl-j ... s-20644090
EV intro to Chloe Dancer / Crown of Thorns
10/25/13 Hartford