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  • she sighed upon the sea

    ...

    and finds herself alone

    feels like home
  • catefrancescatefrances Posts: 28,842
    tremors wrote:
    The writing in this thread is so good it is actually hard to digest without me getting overly churned up. I had to dip in to three or four pieces. Will have to come back to more when feeling stronger. Thanks for sharing this with us. Sincerely.

    thanks.
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • catefrancescatefrances Posts: 28,842
    coming home to an empty house
    i feel the tremors bouncing off the walls
    the words that all turned to lies
    the calm left by your deceit
    that leaves me sad
    not for me but for
    the person you turned out to be
    not once did i ever doubt
    back then anything you had to say
    and had you not done it again
    id still be none the wiser
    but they say habits are hard to break
    and i guess betrayal is your bad habit
    for you to share
    the empty spaces filled with music
    loud enough to drown you out
    is my release and knowing
    the aloneness i momentarily feel
    will cover you til your old age
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • catefrancescatefrances Posts: 28,842
    every where i walk
    i still see you...
    ...feel you by my side
    the thought of you
    sneaks by my defenses
    makes me sad and happy
    at the same time
    cant understand...
    ... probably wont ever...
    ...why you went away
    but when i stop and think
    i hold you closer
    than my own heartbeat
    where ever i walk
    youre there by my left side
    always shadowing me
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • catefrancescatefrances Posts: 28,842
    she didnt know why she stayed. but she did. when he could, they walked... always side by side never touching. he spoke. and she listened. he faltered more than once both in his step and what he had to say. she was quiet and over time learnt by his breath when to speak. he absorbed her and she liked it. as the weeks wore on they walked further and he got stronger. to her it was if every word he spoke energised him. and she was always there. when she found him sitting alone in the dark in a silence deafening to even the loudest heartbeat she took his hand. he looked at her, stood up and with the barest space between them swore hed never let her go.
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • catefrancescatefrances Posts: 28,842
    i see you there
    standing silent
    wrapping yourself in
    your darkness a security blanket
    to keep you safe
    from harm

    i step a little closer
    and you dont
    seem to mind
    a smile a touch
    you come alive learning
    again to trust

    i know
    what i want
    i can bide my time
    til that touch becomes
    your word...
    ... and your word becomes
    what you want
    and what you want
    is us.
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • catefrancescatefrances Posts: 28,842
    we are all graffiti artists. we carve our names into the school desk. we scrawl the name of our favourite band on our pencil case in blue ink. we spend idle moments in school seeing how our name goes with the boy we like's surname. we doodle. we draw fake tattoos on our skin. we take down messages on scraps of paper. leave notes for loved ones on post its on the fridge... sometimes lost among the family photos, works of treasured child art and magnets from places weve visited. everytime we lift a pen or a pencil we become graffiti artists. and every time we should revel in us as creator cause graffiti is art. and art is good.
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • we are all graffiti artists. we carve our names into the school desk. we scrawl the name of our favourite band on our pencil case in blue ink. we spend idle moments in school seeing how our name goes with the boy we like's surname. we doodle. we draw fake tattoos on our skin. we take down messages on scraps of paper. leave notes for loved ones on post its on the fridge... sometimes lost among the family photos, works of treasured child art and magnets from places weve visited. everytime we lift a pen or a pencil we become graffiti artists. and every time we should revel in us as creator cause graffiti is art. and art is good.

    :) lovely


    this thread is great, only just read it i must admit
    have yet to read all of it, but from what i've already seen,you write beautifully.
  • catefrancescatefrances Posts: 28,842
    edited May 2014
    you raped me with your pretty words
    and left me out to dry
    every time i found myself spent
    did all i could not to cry
    i often wonder what it took
    for you to behave the way you did
    but we must be cut from very different cloth
    cause i never could prise off the lid
    of the jar of worms that pumped the blood
    through a decaying mind
    that thought it was just peachy keen
    to drown me deep within the brine

    sometimes when im weak
    and my own mind starts to think
    i remember where you are
    and see its not with me
    and i allow that to make me strong
    and build upon the dead
    words you left hanging high
    of promises unkept.
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    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • tremorstremors Posts: 8,051
    we are all graffiti artists. we carve our names into the school desk. we scrawl the name of our favourite band on our pencil case in blue ink. we spend idle moments in school seeing how our name goes with the boy we like's surname. we doodle. we draw fake tattoos on our skin. we take down messages on scraps of paper. leave notes for loved ones on post its on the fridge... sometimes lost among the family photos, works of treasured child art and magnets from places weve visited. everytime we lift a pen or a pencil we become graffiti artists. and every time we should revel in us as creator cause graffiti is art. and art is good.

    :) lovely


    this thread is great, only just read it i must admit
    have yet to read all of it, but from what i've already seen,you write beautifully.

    Cate's writing is so good it is actually frightening. I have to steel myself before I read this stuff. But I can't help myself
    Cancel my subscription to the Ressurection
    Send my credentials to the house of detention

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  • catefrancescatefrances Posts: 28,842
    remember that picture of your hometown. .. the one you gave me when you sent me the shirt.. red with black wirting? i put it on my fridge door.. so every day i see it. and every day it reminds me of you. some days just your name pops into my head.. just that simple one syllable. other days i wonder where you are..how youre doing... what happened to make you disappear from my life. i sometimes think of reaching out like i did around new years.. but then i tell myself no.. it no longer matters. i remember mentioning a book i was reading at one time and telling you i wanted to share it with you. i guess by the time i got to the end of it, our friendship was at its end too. last week i thought of just sending it to you with a short note. the book sits on my shelf awaiting a decision that will be answered only with time passing. i know its not just my ego telling me you cant simply have grown bored of me. i look back and see that everything was fine between us. so your absence makes no sense. well... it didnt for the longest time. but now ive been made aware of other factors. that other people can smile to your face whilst twisting a knife deep through your spine. and i have to wonder if this is why you left the way you did. was it sticks and stones... where words can and do hurt? was the poison dripped into your ear, one drop at a time? was my friendship so easily discarded? there are questions i know i wont ever get the answers to.. and after all this time it no longer matters. but that doesnt stop me from wondering every time i open my fridge door.
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • catefrancescatefrances Posts: 28,842
    little by little
    it all falls apart
    i reach out to catch it
    but it just all drifts past

    i dont know how it got to this point
    but i know when it started
    you were my whole heart

    then

    little by little
    it all fell apart
    falling in crumbs
    like a hot cross bun

    i dont know why you didnt reach out
    maybe you did
    and i wasnt seeing it straight

    but

    little by little
    it came down to this
    you fell at my feet
    trying to find your bliss
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • catefrancescatefrances Posts: 28,842
    she came to me at night
    and whispered in my ear
    told me everything i was
    and all she had to give

    she only came at night
    and when i woke shed be gone
    clarity came to me slowly
    all she had to give were lies

    although i dodged a bullet
    she winged me pretty good
    and in my head her sweet smile
    has now become the most vicious bite
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • g under pg under p Surfing The far side of THE Sombrero GalaxyPosts: 17,151
    Just read through your thread CF, that's some amazing words keep it going lady.

    Peace
    *We CAN bomb the World to pieces, but we CAN'T bomb it into PEACE*...Michael Franti

    *MUSIC IS the expression of EMOTION.....and that POLITICS IS merely the DECOY of PERCEPTION*
    .....song_Music & Politics....Michael Franti

    *The scientists of today think deeply instead of clearly. One must be sane to think clearly, but one can think deeply and be quite INSANE*....Nikola Tesla(a man who shaped our world of electricity with his futuristic inventions)


  • catefrancescatefrances Posts: 28,842
    thank you.
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • ShimmyMommyShimmyMommy Posts: 7,505
    come before me
    so i can stand behind you
    and hold you up
    when you fall
    the air you breathe is my life force
    the blood that flows
    my river of life
    give to me
    what you receive
    draw strength from what is given you
    and just remember
    where it comes from
    and choose wisely
    to keep us alive

    Incredible :thumbup: :clap: all your writing is incredible :D
    Lots of love, light and hugs to you all!
  • catefrancescatefrances Posts: 28,842
    come before me
    so i can stand behind you
    and hold you up
    when you fall
    the air you breathe is my life force
    the blood that flows
    my river of life
    give to me
    what you receive
    draw strength from what is given you
    and just remember
    where it comes from
    and choose wisely
    to keep us alive

    Incredible :thumbup: :clap: all your writing is incredible :D

    thank you.
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • catefrancescatefrances Posts: 28,842
    she swims among the ocean breeze
    shes drifting out to sea
    she stops and thinks
    then wonders why
    what she feels just can not be
    she closes her eyes
    throws back her head
    and breathes so deep it hurts
    yet when she surfaces from the depths
    she knows
    her lifeforce is what will kill her first
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • justamjustam Posts: 20,953
    ^^^ That one has a good picture in it.
    o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o
    Love is still the best state to live in.
    signaturetree.jpg
  • catefrancescatefrances Posts: 28,842
    i heard his voice
    behind me
    accusatory
    buried deep in my book
    i thought he was alone

    something had happened
    they sat apart

    i dont love you
    she said when he asked
    his reply was lost
    as i felt the air leave the carriage

    i didnt want to listen
    but i did
    i couldnt help it

    they were right there
    face to face
    his hand wanting to touch her
    her attitude daring him to
    but warning him against it

    the train stopped
    he stood up
    beckoned her to follow

    she did

    i saw their legs on the platform
    and breathed again.
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • catefrancescatefrances Posts: 28,842
    i hate what ive become
    When i see what it is i am
    When i feel your shadow
    Darkening my heart
    Turning it black with hardening blood
    There was a time when you were all i saw
    Til i couldnt even see myself
    And now that youve gone seemingly for good
    I hate what ive become
    Lost...
    ... Without my dream
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • ShimmyMommyShimmyMommy Posts: 7,505
    i hate what ive become
    When i see what it is i am
    When i feel your shadow
    Darkening my heart
    Turning it black with hardening blood
    There was a time when you were all i saw
    Til i couldnt even see myself
    And now that youve gone seemingly for good
    I hate what ive become
    Lost...
    ... Without my dream
    :clap:
    Lots of love, light and hugs to you all!
  • catefrancescatefrances Posts: 28,842
    i want you to tell me why i feel this way
    why i cant let what i feel for you go
    i want you to tell me why youre not with me
    why it isnt you i feel when i sleep at night
    i want you to tell me i meant nothing
    to you; that all i felt was delusion on my part
    i want you to tell me why every man i sleep with
    is just filling a space where youre not
    and i want you to tell me those years
    where i gave you more creedence
    than ive ever given any man
    were a waste of my time
    and that all i thought of you
    was just a waste of my time
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • ShimmyMommyShimmyMommy Posts: 7,505
    i want you to tell me why i feel this way
    why i cant let what i feel for you go
    i want you to tell me why youre not with me
    why it isnt you i feel when i sleep at night
    i want you to tell me i meant nothing
    to you; that all i felt was delusion on my part
    i want you to tell me why every man i sleep with
    is just filling a space where youre not
    and i want you to tell me those years
    where i gave you more creedence
    than ive ever given any man
    were a waste of my time
    and that all i thought of you
    was just a waste of my time

    that's awesome, thank you for posting :clap:
    Lots of love, light and hugs to you all!
  • catefrancescatefrances Posts: 28,842
    last night she got so drunk she almost did the unthinkable. she composed... she thought.. but she thought better of it. she knew itd do no good... that she was only venting cause she needed to. but she knew it would serve no purpose that would do any good.. not for her. but you know she got in these moods where thoughts of him overwhelmed her. and these past years shed learnt it didnt matter.. nothing she thought or said mattered.......... and so she took a breath and walked away... shut everything down... laying her head upon a pillow thatd seen better days and wishing sleep to come quickly.
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • catefrancescatefrances Posts: 28,842
    im crying tears i never thought i would
    thunder rolls across the sky
    it envelopes me
    as i lay my head upon the strength that you profess

    every word said i took as truth
    i stood by your side as if...
    ... well as if all you spoke
    was the cornerstone of my belief

    and here i stand alone
    cause i learnt the truth you spoke was
    just lies to build yourself upon

    im crying tears i never thought i would
    and the rain that falls
    waters the resolve i build my future on
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • catefrancescatefrances Posts: 28,842
    the christmas light still hang limply
    casting rainbow spots through the muslin
    a stray strand of tinsel rests on bare floorboards
    forgotten and ignored
    she has no time nor the strength to remove it
    besides its not hurting anybody so
    why not leave it be to do its own thing

    it is may and he has been gone since new years
    he didnt say he was leaving
    he left...
    ... as if only to get a packet of smokes
    but he never came back
    for all she knows he could be dead
    and sometimes she wishes he is
    its the only thing that makes sense of his absence
    his clothes lay folded in the drawers
    his jacket hangs on the hook
    muddy boots rest on the back porch
    and his scent still hangs in the air
    though it is getting less so
    sometimes shell open a drawer and the smell of him will overwhelm her
    sometimes she thinks if she packs all his stuff up that will force his hand
    hell have to come home to prove her suspicions wrong
    but instead...
    she goes about her business changing nothing
    just in case....
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • justamjustam Posts: 20,953
    Cate, I love this one!
    o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o
    Love is still the best state to live in.
    signaturetree.jpg
  • catefrancescatefrances Posts: 28,842
    gracias.


    the seed was planted for that one a few days ago when i heard a song on the radio. i cant remember song it was but when it started the image of neglected xmas lights came into my head.... oh and the song wasnt even about xmas lights or anything.
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
  • catefrancescatefrances Posts: 28,842
    its you, you know
    it always has been
    your absence holds a dagger
    against my skin...
    ... and i cant breathe
    i long for your presence
    so much it aches
    and admitting that truth
    makes me a liar to myself
    ... to my lover
    but not to what i feel right now
    ... and all i ever will.
    hear my name
    take a good look
    this could be the day
    hold my hand
    lie beside me
    i just need to say
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